She’s Back

She’s Back

I’m not really sure where to begin, but what I do know for sure is that I’m finally back and most importantly, I’m not going anywhere.

For the past few months I have taken a step back and immersed in self healing, falling in love with the one person who I have neglected this entire time

Myself.

Letting go of anything that was toxic, anything that was negative, people and things that were such a huge part of me (or so I thought). I had to separate myself completely and figure things out. I have always been one to heal others, the one willing to help, willing to listen, willing to love with every part of herself. Placing all my energy in making others happy… when what I needed the most at the moment was someone to listen, help and love in the same way I was willing to do for them. Clearly not realizing that love that was missing….

was inside of me all along

Growing my confidence in silence, determined to better myself, putting in work, letting go of things I can’t control.. It feels like I am right where I’m supposed to be and surrounded with the right people. I finally feel back on track.

Don’t get me wrong, anyone can learn how to feel confident, learn how to do something, teach it to others but the bad days will always exist. They will creep up on you when you least expect it. They will want to drag you down, but it is within these bad days and how you deal with them that matters the most. Take the time and just disconnect.

Disconnect from everyone, everything. Your inner peace and your energy are the most important things.

Remind yourself of all the good around you and say this with me:

“I. Am. Blessed.”

Something we don’t say to often, because we fail to see all the great things that are placed in our lives. We simply fail to realize that somethings don’t work out because…

God has a better plan for you.  

Growing up I used to be so afraid of change. I always thought that things were fine just how they were. So any sign of change in my life, a red light automatically turned on and my guard went up. Being so afraid of the unknown is what can hold someone back.

Let me make something clear.. uncertainty is not our enemy. I’m not saying you need to become a crazy daredevil to embrace uncertainty, you just need to feel the fear, but still venture into the unknown anyway.

 

 

“When I loved myself enough, I began leaving whatever wasn’t healthy. This meant people, jobs, my own beliefs and habits – anything that kept me small.  My judgement called it disloyal. Now I see it as self-loving.”
 Kim McMillen 

 

Thanks for reading

Love, Estef

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  1. Justin April 8, 2018 / 1:45 am

    This really spoke to me

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